I'm not a drinker. And a friend recommended Pinot Grigio. So I am on my second glass of wine now, listening to Tori Amos on my computer. My daughter is always hanging around me in my room. She is kinda bothering me but I try not to take her presence for granted.
After all, there will come a point in her life where she won't even want to be seen with me. She won't want to be seen with me.
I don't remember the last time I was on here blogging but I am so sure I am in a much different place now than I was then.
Sometimes, I am afraid to really get serious on these things because sometimes you hear about how people get blown up and lose their jobs and all.

I do know that somehow, I want to give back and reach out to others. Be interesting enough to others where I can make things happen especially for our children. They definitely are our future and right now (at least in America), they are going down hill. Our children are losing respect not only for others but more importantly for themselves. I think if the respect for self was right, respect for others would fall into place.
But how do we go about encouraging them to make a change? To start a new cycle instead of completing the old one? I don't know but I do know that even when I tell my daughter to just go in the living room with her sister, she finds a way back in my room right underneath me I feel like I just want to take a walk outside for some air.
But then I feel bad for wishing she would go away. But I feel OK for being honest.
I'd say, part of the solution is as parents, to always be intersted in their child and always want to teach them. Never want to push them away.

Maybe this is the Pinot having me talking a little "all over the place"....but I like it.
Makes me be even more honest with myself.

It's the kind that sends a chill up the spine.
The kind that lingers in my mind.

The look that makes you hug yourself
It makes you unsure of yourself

The walk towards you like he's taking over
The steps you take back because you are not ready

The kind that still penetrates way after contact
The kind that never lets you forget

How it has filled you up unknowingly
The kind you look for unconsciously

The one you can't seem to get enough of.
The man who makes you blush.

It's 2006 and this really needs to be a year of resolutions.
My number one is:
DEBT-FREE IS THE WAY TO BE!!! This year, especially with hopefully a nice tax-return, I can get some of this unneccesary crap off my name. It's weighing me down just knowing that I owe people for very little things.
But let's not get into that.
This year, I plan to end my community college studies as well and move on to a real University. I have been where I am for way too gosh-darn long. Since 2002. I have a serious plan to start at the University of Bridgeport in the summer (if I can save enough for one class-a whopping 1500.00 including books) or in the fall if that fails. But definitely this year.
I have decided firmly that I am going to work on my Bachelor's in Science degree in Psychology. I am going to load on classes to the best of my mental ability. I am only doing two this semester but in the fall, I need at least 4 if the schedule can work itself out.
After getting my BS degree, I plan to stay there and continue for my Master's in Education which should only take a year or two more.
I am still at my great new job where I plan to stay until I get schooling out of the way. I love the job but I wish I had more to do. I think my boss is taking it too easy on me. I try to keep myself busy and end up surfing the internet which I REALLY don't feel too comfortable with. This is a new job...
But anyway...........I feel good about this year. My favorite grandmother is moving back to Connecticut from North Carolina (where I used to live with her and my grandpa-RIP-in 2004). I missed them so much and now, she will be closer to me. This is going to be good and something I've been waiting for.

So I finally got a picture up for TIG members. Tomorrow is x-mas day and also my husband's 22nd birthday. Kinda sucks to be born on x-mas because you probably get one gift for both occasions. This year, I couldn't get anything because we just moved into a new place and I am more worried about keeping the roof over our heads. Also, x-mas comes up so fast and blah, blah, blah.
But I hope it's special enough that we will be together with the children.
Christmas time doesn't feel like Christmas time this year. Maybe just because I am getting older and it's time for me to start buying the gifts for someone else instead of expecting my presents to be under the tree like when I was young.
Either way, I will enjoy myself because the kids will enjoy themselves. Becoming a parent, you start to forget that certain things you do are childish because the kids enjoy it and that's what makes me happy.

I am new to this site and I absolutely love it. I love diversity and here it is. This is totally a place where you see other people's thoughts and opinions and where they are coming from.
In my mind, I am plain American and I like to know about people outside of America. Everyone needs to realize that it's not about them and their country. We do need to take it global more often and respect and get an idea of what it's like in the places you never see.